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[Monday
November 17th, 2008 @ 10:49AM] |
a year has passed
nothing's changed.
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[Thursday
June 12th, 2008 @ 11:17PM] |
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sometimes its a tidal wave.
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[Tuesday
May 6th, 2008 @ 3:19PM] |
today i'm starting .
becoming a nicer person.
and today ends
the trashtalk.
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[Tuesday
April 29th, 2008 @ 11:03PM] |
p.s. i have the worst timing.
maybe its fate?
i doubt it.
bad timing is bad timing.
i'm jinxed.
maybe for a reason?
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[Wednesday
April 16th, 2008 @ 11:30PM] |
"i go through guys every week, matt"
he replies, "i believe it."
i don't really. i change interest quickly and it has
been hard to find that mutual appreciation.
maybe i've found it.
maybe not.
i doubt it.
in other words,
i took my first bath in years
it was a calming exhausting experience
waiting for our weak faucets to fill up the tub
and i just sat there in warm water
it was nothing short of amazing.
i felt rejuvenated but now i am more tired than ever.
but this week has been good to me.
minus drinking all afternoon yesterday
and waking up at 2 am to elliott rapping against
my window for the second time in a week.
it makes me angry.
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[Thursday
March 13th, 2008 @ 5:46PM] |
but you know i know when its a dream
and when i woke i wished i was still dreaming.
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[Tuesday
March 4th, 2008 @ 12:33PM] |
i was on a roll
maybe it was the drink or the smoke
or the combination
but i believed everything i said
i took it all as truth
i was fascinated
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[Tuesday
February 26th, 2008 @ 10:42AM] |
it is always the case that
when i drink
i text
the wrong people
and write them
unreadable things
i think phones should
be built with features
that prevent drunk
text/dialing.
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[Thursday
February 7th, 2008 @ 9:57AM] |
i dreamt last night that you were fat
and old
and hairier.
i smiled.
maybe it wasn't you
afterall.
dreams are dumb
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[Sunday
February 3rd, 2008 @ 10:23PM] |
it doesn't take a lot
for me to get swept
up into a whirlwind
of anxiety panic
self doubt &
lowliness
i want to be
disassociated
from this ciyt
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[Monday
January 28th, 2008 @ 1:27AM] |
it rains and sdpd shows.
everyone out.
i was having a slightly good time.
bored and not buzzed enough.
i feel dumb most of thetime.
i get punctuated frequent spurts
of intense loneliness and lowliness.
i
miss...
a lot of things. these days.
and other days.
maybe not tomorrow.
i don't know how i feel.
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[Monday
January 21st, 2008 @ 7:30AM] |
i leave for seattle shortly and i am nervous and excited. nervous about flying mostly. i rarely travel and i will be alone. i hope everything works out which it usually does in the end.
see you thursday.
p.s. i can't wait to smoke weed out of this baby.
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[Thursday
December 27th, 2007 @ 8:01PM] |
i don't mind being alone.
(anymore)
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[Tuesday
December 18th, 2007 @ 8:14PM] |
barr - half of two times two (newer version)
i forgot about this song.
it is beautiful and catchy.
reminds me of summer nights driving with rory.
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[Sunday
December 16th, 2007 @ 6:33PM] |
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i hate the beatles.
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[Friday
November 16th, 2007 @ 10:21PM] |
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dumb
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[Tuesday
October 23rd, 2007 @ 4:01PM] |
san diego is awash in smoke.
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[Tuesday
October 23rd, 2007 @ 12:54PM] |
2003 all over again. this is fucking crazy. it's worse this time even though the smoke isn't as thick as it was four years ago. you can't escape it. it makes me think of what i would do if i was to leave my home. what's really important?
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[Thursday
October 11th, 2007 @ 3:24PM] |
but why think about that when all the golden land's ahead of you and all kinds of unforseen events wait lurking to surprise you and make you glad you're alive to see?
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[Saturday
September 15th, 2007 @ 7:48PM] |
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i always hate these parts of the month.
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